COMPANY FLYING IN FROM OHIO

My only brother who I haven't seen in 4 years is coming tomorrow. I am very excited about his visit. Our personalities are much the same, and we usually think along the same lines. He is a successful Engineer that works for Ford Motor Company. I am very proud of him for being such a success. I once was successful myself, but due to my illness that has taken over my whole life or should I say what life, I am now worthless.

I probably won't be writing as much as I usually do during the next week, because I'll have someone to talk with and someone to get me out and around. I never get out, because of my panic attacks, other then going to Walmart once a week to get groceries, and that is in the early morning hours when no one is around.

I am a little worried about cooking for him, because I am not a good cook either. He eats only fish and chicken, a very healthy diet and we don't like fish. I don't think I have ever cooked fish in my life. He is very helpful though, not like the typical man, so hopefully he will help me and grill the fish to his liking.

I always get nervous about everything, even about my brother coming. I worry is my house clean enough, do I have everything he likes to eat, how can I keep him entertained, etc.? We'll see how it goes. I am a pretty boring person, I'm the more serious, introvert type. I can't believe at one time in my life I was voted in my Senior year of high school with the best personality, and at work they considered me to be the easiest and friendliest person to get a long with. People would tell me what is not to like about Nancy. I don't know how I ended up like I am today, because I love people, and I miss the interaction with them. I just am not comfortable in crowds, or driving for fear of having another panic attack. As a result, and as a safety net, I won't let myself get in to a situation that could cause me to have another attack. I also, don't let people get too close to me for fear they may see me having an attack. I had so many friends at one time, and now because I have let those friendships fall in an attempt to protect myself I don't have any. Well enough about me. I am a hopeless case.

I just hope he'll enjoy his stay and soak up the sun, and get some rest, because he travels a lot for his job and works hard every day. If I can accomplish this one small thing for my brother I will feel better. One thing about me is I love taking care of people.

If I get a chance during this upcoming week, I will write and it will probably be about my best friend Hillary Clinton.

My brother is just as passionate as I am about Hillary becoming President. Today, I feel good that my daughter's boyfriend registered as a democrat, and my husband is going to change his party to democrat, so he is able to vote for Hillary if we have to re vote.

The Rasmussen poll they ran today showed the results for Florida wouldn't change. Hillary would win 55% to 36%. Michigan would be tied. I can't wait until this is over and Hillary gets the nomination, because I know she will win the National Election without a doubt. People are tired of the Republican's being in the White House.

Hillary made over 6million in 48 hours. I just checked her website and I was thrilled that people are swarming her way. People are starting to take this election serious and they want someone with her experience in the White House, and it doesn't hurt to have Bill Clinton their to consult with. What better combination could you ask for.

There is talk that Hillary and Obama might run on the same ticket. I am not sure what to think about that. I don't trust Obama, because of his ties to terrorists and criminals, and his lack of experience. A lot more investigation of Obama needs to be done, before I could honestly say I would support him. I blame the media for their lack of scrutiny of Obama. After all, this is the most important job in the World.

I have spent many hours writing letters for Hillary, making calls for Hillary, and writing to the Democratic Party Leaders, the Florida Governor, and Democratic Senator, as well as to the media and radio stations to try to make a difference. I can't take credit for her successes, but I got a letter from her today thanking me and she said this was my win because of all I have done for her. I am proud to have been not just a bystander, but a person who took action and did all I could within my power to make some small contribution. It really boggles my mind that people stand by and criticize or praise her, but they do nothing but talk. I knew I had to do something, however small to help her. I couldn't sit back and just hope she would win, because I wouldn't forgive myself if she lost and I did nothing. If you work hard, and put your all in to it, I believe nothing is impossible. When I believe in something as deeply as I do about Hillary being President watch out. Maybe it is because I have an Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, because I am compulsive about many things. Whatever the reason I feel good for the small part I played, and I intend to continue to do whatever is necessary within my power, however small it may be.